Damn, twenty already?
Time is really flying by. Like it’s moving moving. Looking at the past two years, I graduated high school, blinked, and now I’m like four months from being twenty years old and a sophomore in college. Damn, I feel like I haven’t been living in the moment and enjoying my youth. I still remember being in the fifth grade when my entire existence and my only worries in the world revolved around playing basketball with my friends.
The Grass is Greener Where You Water It
Throughout my childhood and teenage years, I have found myself always wishing to be in the next chapter of my life. When I was in middle school, I was dying to be a big kid in high school. I wanted nothing more than to be driving and going out with my friends, and as a result I didn’t enjoy my time being an awkward little boy who got to do nothing but play basketball, all day and all night. And just like that, middle school was over in an instant. When I was in high school, I wished everyday for time to hurry up so that I could be in college already. Partying every night and being on my own was my dream. As a result, I took my time as a young teen for granted. And just like that, high school became a memory.
College has been probably the most important years of my life so far. I’ve learned a lot about myself and who I want to be. I’ve done a lot and seen a lot in just two years, and I still have two more years to go. I really feel like I’m starting to find my groove. Contrary to what I thought, I don’t like parties that much.
This time around in my life though, I don’t wish to be older. Truthfully, I’m scared of being older, because life is about to get a whole lot realer for the kid.
The Next Chapter
In the next coming years, I am going to be dragged into a full fledged adult. Like, as in my life is placed in my hands. I no longer have anybody to fall back on, and my responsibilities go way past a part time job to pay for food and weed. More than likely within the next ten years of my life I will have people depending on me. That shit scares me more than anything. Ten years seems like a lifetime away from now. Funny because I bet in ten years time I will come back to this post and say to myself how fast that decade went and how I remember sitting in my room writing this piece.
We’ve all heard that God awful quote that every senior in high school uses to get a reaction, “enjoy your time in high school because it goes by really fast”. As overused as that saying is, it’s overused for a reason. That reason being truth. The older you get, the faster time seems to move. Hopefully I’m wrong in that statement, but that’s how I’ve been feeling thus far.
Capture Your Life
One thing I wish I would have done earlier in my life was capture moments. I never took photos or videos as a kid. I just never did. And it makes me sad because there are so many good memories that I have that I wish I would’ve immortalized. I’ve been working on using my camera more, but I struggle with taking photos and videos to save memories. When I am in the moment living life, I usually don’t have my phone out, and I don’t think about taking a picture.
You don’t have to be on your phone all of the time to get capture memories. All you need to do is take a quick flick or video. Be aware next time you are doing something worth remembering. The memories, feelings, and thoughts associated with a picture are invaluable, especially when you look at them later in life.
That was a little bit off topic, but really, appreciate life while you are living in it. I am so damn thankful for the position that I am at in life. I have a good family supporting me, some good people I call my friends, and a growing mindset to be a better me everyday.
Dream big, Be in the moment
I preach being in the present in my life because living in the moment slows life down. When you are living in the moment, you are not thinking about bullshit that doesn’t matter. You aren’t tripping about the future or the past. You are just living, and that is more liberating than any other thing in this world.
Dream big and remember the good times. But don’t over think and don’t dwell in your hardships. It is important to manifest and work hard for what you want, but remember that the journey is the bulk of time spent. So enjoy the journey as if it were the destination.
